I'm on a mission to overcome negativity. In an effort to speed some of my progress I am trying to reconnect, let go, and overcome some obstacles in some of my best friendships that I have let lie, because I had no idea how to cope or deal with it and I was avoiding dealing with it while my personal life was falling apart. I didn't even know how to escape my toxic marriage let alone repair a broken friendship. I'm working on changing all of that, because it's a positive step. I need as many positive steps as I can manage.
Lately, I've been feeling stressed, overwhelmed, anxious, sad, and so many other negatives.
I'm concentrating lately on turning all that around.
I'm trying to let go of control and go with the flow.
I'm trying to not be so worried, because worrying isn't helping anything.
This is so much easier said than done. Sometimes, I find myself in tears that seem to not end, but after letting myself surrender to the feeling I get moving and pull myself back together. It's amazing how doing some dishes or cleaning up after our 7 puppies can be so cathartic during such a tumultuous period of time.
It's a constant process, but worth the effort.
I had finally started to have a firm handle on my anxiety when all these things out of anyone's control started. It is disappointing to be experience to have made such great strides and be experiencing some set-backs, but these are temporary.
Luckily, I'm coping and trying. I am thankful and grateful that I have faith and have found many inspiring articles to read along with just trying to keep myself moving and still take time to feel what I feel.
None of this is going to keep me down. It's a delicate balance of feeling what I feel and not wallowing it.
Any prayers for my mother's health and for my family would be greatly appreciated.
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